May 29, 2021 The pain in my hip makes it difficult to stand and walk. My threshold for pain is quite high. I’ve given birth three times, have undergone multiple surgeries, have fallen with injuries resulting on too many occasions to count. I live with chronic pain in my hip, back neck, shoulder and arm. …
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From Providence to Lords Valley
September 2020 The autumn day promised scattered showers along the four-hour route. The cool breezes and cloudy skies of late September in the northeast part of the country tease with sporadic pops of brilliant yellows and rich reds among the changing greenery. From Rhode Island to Interstate 84 through Connecticut and New York westbound toward …
DIVINE DISSATISFACTION – an essay for black history month
If a man will lie, he will steal, and if he will steal, he will kill. Martin Luther King Jr. In January 2021, one year after the COVID 19 virus proved beyond doubt that the world’s populous is indeed an interconnected mass, my colleagues and I were discussing the MLK holiday and how our mutual …
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Cries
salt water squeezed through microscopic holes, forced through the tiniest of holes by the pressure of muffled screams stifled so deep they cannot be heard only tasted through the corner of my mouth, on the tip of my tongue.
STRONG HANDS
These strong hands that hold me close and save me from a fall from grace and dignity but that’s certainly not all . . . They comfort me in times of need and though they are not soft, they secure me from the fires and carry me aloft. Big and thick and powerful – most …
Race . . .
I need to talk. It is in my nature to be effusive and thoughtful. So, I pay a therapist because most of the people in my life don’t have the time or desire to listen to me as much as I want them to. In fairness to myself though, I am also a solid and …
Going to the Movies
My mom’s second husband liked to take her to the movies. But she never understood why since he would always fall asleep before it was half over. She remembers wondering why he continued to suggest it – if he was just going to nap. He would cross his arms and get comfortable. Sometimes he’d snore …
New York Minute
So, yeah I am in New York for my 31st wedding anniversary. My husband and I are going to see Hamilton on Broadway. It’s a bit extravagant, but he’s trying to make up for not giving me a gift for our 30th anniversary. Which I must admit stung a bit. I had gone out of …
Seder
I am not Jewish; my children are. So many feelings about being a Jew in America today. . . Passover begins tonight – Good Friday evening. This year Easter and Passover, share a weekend of religious observance. I am writing about this because Judaism has been influential in the growth and development of my family. …
Daniel
They buried Daniel this week. I cried at the thought of him being gone. My mother said, “as you get older it happens more and more” – you are saddened by the loss of people that you didn’t even realize had such a profound impact in your life. He was everything the folks at his …